I loved you.

I wanted you the most,
But then you're the one i'm best without.
You're the one, who can't hear me cry and shout.
I loved you not because of who you are,
But because you were on my mind all the time,
Even when we were so far.
But now i realised
A simple fact summing up my life
That i loved you
And You loved her
I told myself to stop loving you
But you kept on loving her...

Let it all go

With tears in her eyes
She hid her face under the pillow.
The door was locked,
The only thing open was the window.
She was silently screaming,
And praying for help.
Her eyes were red,
Of colour of hate she felt.
It was time for her to see
That her childhood was over long ago
And why she just couldn't be.
She cried all night long
Her heart gave up saying everything was going wrong.
She understood that time,
No longer could she be so strong.
With tears in her eyes
She saw feelings she couldn't show
With tears in her eyes
She told herself
To let it all go.

Strong Guy

It takes a strong guy to handle a broken girl,
But harder to handle its own broken heart.
When he can see the one who broke it,
Was the one who deserved it.
It takes a strong guy to see people fall apart,
And specially those, that were the closest to his heart.
What if he needs to know,
Someone in the crowd loves him but can't say,
Cause she knows his heartbreak kills him in every way.
It takes a strong guy to share his feelings with an unknown stranger.
Cause sometimes its better to talk to them than to known haters.
What if he needs to know more,
Someone is ready out there to listen to all of his problems.
Only if he's ready to tell a girl he had hardly ever talked to.
Cause it takes a strong guy to know that even after knowing so many haters,
There's somebody unknown,
waiting to be known.

I wish

I wish i could tell you,
How much i love you.
That you're the only one i want.
And seeing you everyday makes everyday go your way.
I wish i could tell you,
I see you in my sleep and all of the time thats left.
That your'e my unfulfilled wish, yet to come true.
I wish i could just tell you to open your eyes, to make you realise.
That what you want is not meant to be.
And i'm the one that you'll love and the world will see.
I wish i could tell you,
How much i love you.
I wish i could tell you,
How much i love you.

Change

I didn't really change.
I just found who i was.
Who i am,
And who i'll be.
So until now the one whom i was,
Wasn't me.
I came across a phase where i got to know,
What i dreamt and wished for
Fought with my fate like a war.
So in the old i found a new one,
To show the world that who i am and who i was,
Are different like the moon and sun.
I have new wishes, and new dreams to see.
To fight what comes in the way,
And one day be free.
So i didn't really change.
I just found who i was
Who i am,
And who i'll be.

One Day

One day i will forget,
What you did, and what you said.
But i'll never forget how you made me feel,
And with those feelings, how i dealt.
One day i will go,
Leaving behind my dreams and you,
But each moment i'll make you realise,
You failed to make my dreams come true.
One day i will make you show,
How much you hurt me,
And how your ignorance helped me grow.
I will do everything i say,
But if only i stop loving you
And remain lovestruck night and day.
I will do everything to show you,
You made me stronger.
But if only one day i decide,
I won't love you any longer.

I Respect You

I hated my life. I hated being me and everything that i was. I used to blame myself for everything that happened and disliked my life so much that once, i thought of leaving everything behind and manage a runaway.
Life was like a blunder. Like literally, i used to be like 'why me'. I saw myself as the unluckiest person alive until when i came to know about a guy.
I knew him before, but not his story.
He was one to be called not unlucky, but unfortunate. I used to think that i was the only one with problems in life, but that guy proved me wrong. He in person never told me anything but i could see pain in his eyes every time we looked at each other. His story was one to be known. My heart sank when a mutual friend told me he had severe serious issues with his father, who had left him, his sister and his mother when he was young. His father made a big mistake by not only separating with his mother but, marrying another one too. He never liked to talk about his personal life, and he never did. As an extra information, i must mention that i liked him before knowing his story, and i fell for him even more harder after i knew it. Now i believe, I'm not the only one managing problems. I'm not the only one having myself to blame. And i'm not the only one, whose unfortunate. I have come across a phase in life where i have realised that everyone has their own life to live, their own problems to solve, and their own battles to fight. This is to show respect to that guy, whom people call a use material cause of his innocence. This is to show respect to that guy, who is really worth it. And finally, this is to make that guy know, that even if he is not wanted by his father, even if he is not wanted by people around, he must know about a girl who not only loves him truly, but respects him too.

Change

I didn't really change.
I just found who i was.
Who i am,
And who i'll be.
So until now the one whom i was,
Wasn't me.
I came across a phase where i got to know,
What i dreamt and wished for
Fought with my fate like a war.
So in the old i found a new one,
To show the world that who i am and who i was,
Are different like the moon and sun.
I have new wishes, and new dreams to see.
To fight what comes in the way,
And one day be free.
So i didn't really change.
I just found who i was
Who i am,
And who i'll be.

I Quit

Finally i say, i quit.
After all the tries and failures,
I say i've had it.
I did all that i could.
I'm done with everything.
And i say this cause i should.
Now those tears, too,
Quit to fall.
They say they don't see anything new.
Finally i say, i quit.
After all the internal conflicts,
I say i've had it.
I can't stand alone anymore.
With all the emptiness around,
My mind has become sore.
My heart has decided to quit.
It can't remain broken.
It says it has had enough of it.
Finally i say, i quit.
I can't see whats happening around,
I miss those days,
Where love i found.
I quit,
Not because i'm weak.
Not because i was wrong.
I quit,
Because i've been strong for too long.
I QUIT.

Losing me

That day will come when i'll go away.
And i know no one will ask me to stay.
I want to go far from here.
I cant stand being unwanted.
Being rejected is what i fear.
I've always wanted love and care.
But i get those opportunities very rare.
That day will come when i'll leave everything behind.
I'll break all relations.
And the best part would be,
No one would mind.
i too have a story that i'll never tell.
In which, each step i took,
I always fell.
That day will come when you'll feel my absence.
Only if i fly away,
Not wanting to stay.
I will.
I might.
I'll kill,
Myself.
To make you see,
What you've lost.
By losing me.

If He

If he's the right guy,
He won't leave.
If he's the one,
All your dreams he'll believe.
If you ever think he never knew,
You must know,
He was trying to make it come true.
If he's the right guy,
He'll always be there.
If he's the one,
He'll never show but always care.
If he's your love,
He'll love you too.
And if he loves you,
He'll love only you..

Not meant for love

Behind my smile is a broken heart.
Behind my jokes and laughs,
Im falling apart.
Look close, I'm the girl who isn't free.
I'm the girl who isn't me.
I'd always been the victim of your unwanted love.
And the thoughts in my mind.
In which a way out i can't find.
But i'll never let go of my dream.
Even though to you, the weirdest it may seem.
Cause sometimes the dreams we see,
Are really a reflection,
Of who we'd be.
Even though i can't face it,
I'd be true to myself and tell my heart,
Love is meant to fall apart.
Specific, i'll be.
Im not meant for love,
All can see.
So i have to tell my heart,
Love is meant to fall apart..

Those Days

I never thought a year would pass so soon.
All those memories have to be left behind like an unhealed wound.
New days are in wait,
I'll see what happens,
And whats written in my fate.
I'd always thought of a dream to come true.
But my smallest wishes were already granted,
That i never even knew.
For one second my life was in front of me,
Showing me what i am.
And what i could be.
So a decision i took today.
I'll never give up on my dream.
Not even in a single way.
Those days have passed so soon,
They're carved in my heart.
Like an unhealed wound.
They're carved in my heart,
Like a memory never falling apart..

Stop Loving You

I try so hard to stop loving you.
I feel like I'm coming between you and her.
I hold back my tears every time i see you with her,
And compared to me,
I know she's better.
I try so hard to stop loving you.
I feel either brave, or stupid.
To love someone who doesn't love back.
Sometimes i think,
You and her,
Are meant to be together.
Sometimes i think,
You and I,
My love and my heart,
Are meant to fall apart.
I try so hard to stop loving you.
I try but can't,
I try so hard to stop loving you,
But i can't stop loving you.

I Love You

I found true love in him.
He found it somewhere else.
I still hope he's happy with her,
Unless she loves him too.
I fell for him,
Unknown that he caught someone else.
And now known to their relationship,
I still hope they be together,
Cause it is my happiness,
That lives in his.
I won't mind seeing them make a story,
And realising mine ended where theirs started.
I'll praise the writer for giving him what he wanted.
But deep down the lane,
I wish he realised,
His love wasn't true,
And i'm the one who
Deserves his "I Love You"


Love.

I Want

I want to be treated like i treat everyone.
I want to cry without the fear of someone asking why.
I want everyone to see every drop of tear that falls.
I want to die and make people realise what they lost.
I want to feel wanted.
I want to see my importance in someone's life, if there is any.
I want show my feelings to everyone after hiding for so long.
And out of all,
I want to be loved..

Us To Be

I really used to think
You love me as much as i love you
That you wish for me before sleeping
And dream of me wishing everything comes true.
I really used to think
You looked at me everyday
To see me smile
Even in the weirdest way.
But i guess my thoughts were wrong.
I don't know what happened
I don't know why
You stopped looking at me
I don't know why
Your friends walk past me
And laugh at me like i'm a fucking joker.
Im pissed off by not seeing you looking at me
cause thats the only thing i wished us to be.
Thats the only thing i wished us to be!

Haters

There's a wall of rejections in my front,
Its made of bricks of hate,
That I have to confront.
In no time, I'll have to be strong.
Cause there'd be an army of haters,
Who'll try to prove me wrong.
There would be happiness,
There would me pain.
But cheers to my haters,
I wont complaint.
Even though there'd be no one to be with me,
I'll walk alone and show the world,
There's no one who can stop me from being free.
Cause there's a wall of rejections in my front,
Its made of bricks of hate,
That I have to confront..

Strangers

We never talked
And i guess we never will.
Since the beginning, i knew
Whatever we are
And whatever we'll be
Will never come true
But there was thing.
Hope.
That lived in my heart
And always wished for you.
I don't know what makes you so special
Gives you a place in my heart
Like i don't have in yours.
Damn. I really wished for us to be
A fairytale that everyone could see!
But nothing could come true
Cause since the beginning
We were strangers
And i guess, we'll always be.
And i guess, we'll always be.

Its so hard

Its so hard to take all those tears back,
To forget those days,
That flash in my mind like a movie white and black!
Its so hard to hide all the pain,
But its even worse when you don't care,
And still i don't complaint.
Its so hard to see you in love not with me
And those dreams are left behind like wishes that what a fairytale we could be.
Its so hard to realise there's nothing left to say,
But those flashbacks of our conversations hurt me night and day.
Its so hard to see you walk by.
Not looking at me
And when i realise,
for your one glance i could die.
But its time for me to know
We aren't meant to be,
The signs show.
Even though you'll never love me,
And even if my dreams don't come true,
Its so hard for me to say,
I'll always love you.

Love.

Just a Phase

Sometimes i burst out into tears.
Incapable of facing all my fears.
Every night, there's a silent cry.
Telling my heart the whole world is a lie.
Its hard to understand my dreams,
Like a maze, or a puzzle my life seems.

Grade Eight.

And so this day had to come.

Never knew a year would pass in a flash of a second.

Here’s to all the fun.

To all the bunks. And to all the cheats.

Everyday was a new day.

New challenges. And new chapters!

Here’s to all the moments we shared,

And all the memories we made.

All my classmates, and all my teachers.

Their detention threats, and their parent meeting calls.

Will always remain in my heart,

And even after years pass,

I’ll never let them fall apart.

And so this day had to come.

The most unwanted part of every grade,

Is here.

Leaving your class behind

Besides leaving all the fun,

And all the friends.

This day had to come.

But never knew it would,

So fast.

All I want to say, at the end of it, is

Those memories will always be with me.

The love I got will always be appreciated.

The friends I made will always remain my friends.

And I hope the coming year,

Will be as amazing and unforgettable

As this one was…

Love.

He&She

She just joined school.
He was there before.
She was completely new to everyone.
As usual he was popular.
She used to miss her old friends.
He was having fun with his friends.
She tried really hard to get over her ex boyfriend who dumped her.
He was dating a girl who was using him but he was unaware.
She started to get along with people.
He started to notice her.
She knew he was still dating that girl.
He wanted to break up.
She was now enjoying her new life.
He was getting interested in her.
She saw him looking at her.
He continued to look at her.
She then started liking him.
He broke up with his girlfriend.
She got hopes.
He didn't know if he liked her.
She fell in love all over again.
He didn't know what to do but he was fond of her.
She didn't know he had a girl-best friend.
He thought she knew.
She saw him hug her.
He still didn't know if he liked her.
She was broken to see him with her.
He got to know she loved him.
She was embarrassed.
He came to her to ask for something but wanted to check if she liked him.
She blushed as soon as he took her name.
He got to know again she liked him.
She was again embarrassed.
Then he started ignoring her.
She was all alone.
He still stared at her but looked away as soon as she looked.
She held back her tears every time she saw him ignoring her.
He still didn't know what to do.
She realised it wasn't love. It was more than it.
He was getting signs she was the one.

Now both love each other,
But both hesitate to say
That without each other
They cant live a single day.


Love.

Whats Yours

The only way to see a ray of light in darkness, is to open your eyes and search for it.
You won't be able to achieve anything without moving a step further and if you do,
its not something you achieved.
Its something you just got. Something you already had.
If you want something, really badly,
If you want something with all your heart
And all your passion,
The whole frikkin' world will get together to make you have it.
And if it doesn't come to you,
Even after trying the hardest
Then it'll be time for you to realise
That never was it yours,
And never will it be.


Love.

Kings and Queens

The world is full of kings and queens.
Who'll blind your eyes,
And steal your dreams.
You'll have to see where you go
Cause whatever you do and will be
Everywhere you'll see rejection and hear a no.
The time won't wait
It'll fly away,
Like your dreams you saw
And hoped will come true someday.
Prove people wrong
It will take time for you to shine
But it won't take long.
Turn your cant's to cans
And your dreams,
Your dreams to plans.
If you really think you want to die
You must know whats true
You just want to be saved
Of what you don't even have a clue.
Cause the world,
The world is full of kings and queens
Who'll blind your eyes
And steal your dreams.


Love.

Sometimes.

Sometimes tears are a sign of unspoken happiness
And smiles a sign of unbearable pain.
Sometimes bad moments are the things which make our heart sink
But the good ones are those which drive us insane.
We really have to sit back and watch life pass
And wait for the moment when you can say "oh yes, at last!"
Sometimes you have to hold back all your tears
Cause you know you'll forget what happened after you pass years.
But you'll never forget how you were and how you felt,
You'll remember those feelings.
And with them, how you dealt.
All those memories, and all those days
Sometimes you have to let them go in anyways.
Whatever you do, or whatever you will
Always remember your dos and don'ts don't leave you thrilled.
Sometimes life takes a turn where we don't want to go
But it takes us somewhere where we realise life is like snow,
Every step we take will show.
Sometimes we have to face our worst fear
And all that pain, and all the rejection,
We have to bear.
At the end of it i tell you,
You'll find all cures
Where what comes to you
Will forever be with you.
And what won't come
Was never was yours..

Love.

Did Romeo think before falling in love with Juliet?
No. It just happened to him. I wish i could go and ask him, but. Yeah no. I can't. How did Romeo manage to fight Juliet's family? I wish i could go and ask. Well, praise Shakespeare for writing not a story about two lovers, but a saga.
For a moment i just imagine, if Shakespeare were alive. And was seeing the cry-die situation of the young lovers chatting on Facebook!
Their parents yelling at them forcing them to deactivate their accounts.
Oh man! This generation has seriously changed the meaning of love! They say its finding a guy cute. Or girl attractive. But is this really what love is? No. A simple no.
Thats cause love is what Romeo-Juliet were. Their story may be written by Shakespeare but their story has shown the world how far love can travel and where it can take you. It has shown the world that endings may not be happy but the journey; the journey is all worth it!
Seriously. If today, shakespeare were alive, he must have felt great. To see his R&J classic compared to school crushes. This is so not against teen love but is for the real love.
So with this i end it saying if you can wait for true love, it wont make you anymore!

Love.

I Did Nothing

Under every blanket of fears
There's always a silent cry
With the hope that someone will come
And wipe all the tears.
The heart does the work of the mind
Keeps on thinking and thinking,
hopes with eyes blind.
There's always a story
Left behind untold.
A heart that never found warmth
With love that was cold.
Everyone fights their own war,
To fight for something
Thats worth wishing for.
There's always a hope
Even though everyone knows whats true
We all make a wish we had and never knew.
Life comes with a bag of tools
For work to do
Without any rules.
Even though no one is
Every one says they 're fine
But the truth lies where they crave to hear
"Your'e mine"
There's always one point when there's so much work to do
You forget whats yours
And your dreams you had and never knew.
There's always that moment when
You have to live
Even for the smallest thing
So that you don't die saying
"All that while, I did nothing."

Promises

I've got promises to keep
And miles to go before i sleep
I'll live for my dream
With a pinch of darkness and
With the light's beam
I wont let anyone down
I'll be happy and try not to frown.
The journey is gonna be tough
But i'll make it worth a smile
And also a laugh
Cause i have promises to keep
And miles to go before i sleep.
I'll make their dreams come true
For i live for them and
Wont let them have a clue
All i want is for them to smile
So i have to go far
Far than just a mile
They raised me
And had already thought of who i'd be
But i don't regret
All i have to do
Is forgive and forget
Cause i've got promises to keep
And miles to go before i sleep.


Love.

Growing Up

Growing up, has always been a choice. Since the beginning of probably everything, everyone wanted to succeed. But in this race of success people forget to wear the shoes of happiness. All over around, i see my peeps fight on petty issues. Why so but? Because of the burden of stress on our shoulders where we are forced to live a life set by our parents, we forget who we really are!
Always, i've seen parents push their children into that race. That race of success. Where we forget to be happy.
All this is because, we chose to grow up. We grew up so fast in the anticipation of becoming an adult, we really forgot to live our childhood.
So here's to that decision we made, and let it change our lives forever.