Change

I didn't really change.
I just found who i was.
Who i am,
And who i'll be.
So until now the one whom i was,
Wasn't me.
I came across a phase where i got to know,
What i dreamt and wished for
Fought with my fate like a war.
So in the old i found a new one,
To show the world that who i am and who i was,
Are different like the moon and sun.
I have new wishes, and new dreams to see.
To fight what comes in the way,
And one day be free.
So i didn't really change.
I just found who i was
Who i am,
And who i'll be.

One Day

One day i will forget,
What you did, and what you said.
But i'll never forget how you made me feel,
And with those feelings, how i dealt.
One day i will go,
Leaving behind my dreams and you,
But each moment i'll make you realise,
You failed to make my dreams come true.
One day i will make you show,
How much you hurt me,
And how your ignorance helped me grow.
I will do everything i say,
But if only i stop loving you
And remain lovestruck night and day.
I will do everything to show you,
You made me stronger.
But if only one day i decide,
I won't love you any longer.

I Respect You

I hated my life. I hated being me and everything that i was. I used to blame myself for everything that happened and disliked my life so much that once, i thought of leaving everything behind and manage a runaway.
Life was like a blunder. Like literally, i used to be like 'why me'. I saw myself as the unluckiest person alive until when i came to know about a guy.
I knew him before, but not his story.
He was one to be called not unlucky, but unfortunate. I used to think that i was the only one with problems in life, but that guy proved me wrong. He in person never told me anything but i could see pain in his eyes every time we looked at each other. His story was one to be known. My heart sank when a mutual friend told me he had severe serious issues with his father, who had left him, his sister and his mother when he was young. His father made a big mistake by not only separating with his mother but, marrying another one too. He never liked to talk about his personal life, and he never did. As an extra information, i must mention that i liked him before knowing his story, and i fell for him even more harder after i knew it. Now i believe, I'm not the only one managing problems. I'm not the only one having myself to blame. And i'm not the only one, whose unfortunate. I have come across a phase in life where i have realised that everyone has their own life to live, their own problems to solve, and their own battles to fight. This is to show respect to that guy, whom people call a use material cause of his innocence. This is to show respect to that guy, who is really worth it. And finally, this is to make that guy know, that even if he is not wanted by his father, even if he is not wanted by people around, he must know about a girl who not only loves him truly, but respects him too.

Change

I didn't really change.
I just found who i was.
Who i am,
And who i'll be.
So until now the one whom i was,
Wasn't me.
I came across a phase where i got to know,
What i dreamt and wished for
Fought with my fate like a war.
So in the old i found a new one,
To show the world that who i am and who i was,
Are different like the moon and sun.
I have new wishes, and new dreams to see.
To fight what comes in the way,
And one day be free.
So i didn't really change.
I just found who i was
Who i am,
And who i'll be.

I Quit

Finally i say, i quit.
After all the tries and failures,
I say i've had it.
I did all that i could.
I'm done with everything.
And i say this cause i should.
Now those tears, too,
Quit to fall.
They say they don't see anything new.
Finally i say, i quit.
After all the internal conflicts,
I say i've had it.
I can't stand alone anymore.
With all the emptiness around,
My mind has become sore.
My heart has decided to quit.
It can't remain broken.
It says it has had enough of it.
Finally i say, i quit.
I can't see whats happening around,
I miss those days,
Where love i found.
I quit,
Not because i'm weak.
Not because i was wrong.
I quit,
Because i've been strong for too long.
I QUIT.

Losing me

That day will come when i'll go away.
And i know no one will ask me to stay.
I want to go far from here.
I cant stand being unwanted.
Being rejected is what i fear.
I've always wanted love and care.
But i get those opportunities very rare.
That day will come when i'll leave everything behind.
I'll break all relations.
And the best part would be,
No one would mind.
i too have a story that i'll never tell.
In which, each step i took,
I always fell.
That day will come when you'll feel my absence.
Only if i fly away,
Not wanting to stay.
I will.
I might.
I'll kill,
Myself.
To make you see,
What you've lost.
By losing me.

If He

If he's the right guy,
He won't leave.
If he's the one,
All your dreams he'll believe.
If you ever think he never knew,
You must know,
He was trying to make it come true.
If he's the right guy,
He'll always be there.
If he's the one,
He'll never show but always care.
If he's your love,
He'll love you too.
And if he loves you,
He'll love only you..

Not meant for love

Behind my smile is a broken heart.
Behind my jokes and laughs,
Im falling apart.
Look close, I'm the girl who isn't free.
I'm the girl who isn't me.
I'd always been the victim of your unwanted love.
And the thoughts in my mind.
In which a way out i can't find.
But i'll never let go of my dream.
Even though to you, the weirdest it may seem.
Cause sometimes the dreams we see,
Are really a reflection,
Of who we'd be.
Even though i can't face it,
I'd be true to myself and tell my heart,
Love is meant to fall apart.
Specific, i'll be.
Im not meant for love,
All can see.
So i have to tell my heart,
Love is meant to fall apart..

Those Days

I never thought a year would pass so soon.
All those memories have to be left behind like an unhealed wound.
New days are in wait,
I'll see what happens,
And whats written in my fate.
I'd always thought of a dream to come true.
But my smallest wishes were already granted,
That i never even knew.
For one second my life was in front of me,
Showing me what i am.
And what i could be.
So a decision i took today.
I'll never give up on my dream.
Not even in a single way.
Those days have passed so soon,
They're carved in my heart.
Like an unhealed wound.
They're carved in my heart,
Like a memory never falling apart..

Stop Loving You

I try so hard to stop loving you.
I feel like I'm coming between you and her.
I hold back my tears every time i see you with her,
And compared to me,
I know she's better.
I try so hard to stop loving you.
I feel either brave, or stupid.
To love someone who doesn't love back.
Sometimes i think,
You and her,
Are meant to be together.
Sometimes i think,
You and I,
My love and my heart,
Are meant to fall apart.
I try so hard to stop loving you.
I try but can't,
I try so hard to stop loving you,
But i can't stop loving you.

I Love You

I found true love in him.
He found it somewhere else.
I still hope he's happy with her,
Unless she loves him too.
I fell for him,
Unknown that he caught someone else.
And now known to their relationship,
I still hope they be together,
Cause it is my happiness,
That lives in his.
I won't mind seeing them make a story,
And realising mine ended where theirs started.
I'll praise the writer for giving him what he wanted.
But deep down the lane,
I wish he realised,
His love wasn't true,
And i'm the one who
Deserves his "I Love You"


Love.

I Want

I want to be treated like i treat everyone.
I want to cry without the fear of someone asking why.
I want everyone to see every drop of tear that falls.
I want to die and make people realise what they lost.
I want to feel wanted.
I want to see my importance in someone's life, if there is any.
I want show my feelings to everyone after hiding for so long.
And out of all,
I want to be loved..

Us To Be

I really used to think
You love me as much as i love you
That you wish for me before sleeping
And dream of me wishing everything comes true.
I really used to think
You looked at me everyday
To see me smile
Even in the weirdest way.
But i guess my thoughts were wrong.
I don't know what happened
I don't know why
You stopped looking at me
I don't know why
Your friends walk past me
And laugh at me like i'm a fucking joker.
Im pissed off by not seeing you looking at me
cause thats the only thing i wished us to be.
Thats the only thing i wished us to be!

Haters

There's a wall of rejections in my front,
Its made of bricks of hate,
That I have to confront.
In no time, I'll have to be strong.
Cause there'd be an army of haters,
Who'll try to prove me wrong.
There would be happiness,
There would me pain.
But cheers to my haters,
I wont complaint.
Even though there'd be no one to be with me,
I'll walk alone and show the world,
There's no one who can stop me from being free.
Cause there's a wall of rejections in my front,
Its made of bricks of hate,
That I have to confront..

Strangers

We never talked
And i guess we never will.
Since the beginning, i knew
Whatever we are
And whatever we'll be
Will never come true
But there was thing.
Hope.
That lived in my heart
And always wished for you.
I don't know what makes you so special
Gives you a place in my heart
Like i don't have in yours.
Damn. I really wished for us to be
A fairytale that everyone could see!
But nothing could come true
Cause since the beginning
We were strangers
And i guess, we'll always be.
And i guess, we'll always be.

Its so hard

Its so hard to take all those tears back,
To forget those days,
That flash in my mind like a movie white and black!
Its so hard to hide all the pain,
But its even worse when you don't care,
And still i don't complaint.
Its so hard to see you in love not with me
And those dreams are left behind like wishes that what a fairytale we could be.
Its so hard to realise there's nothing left to say,
But those flashbacks of our conversations hurt me night and day.
Its so hard to see you walk by.
Not looking at me
And when i realise,
for your one glance i could die.
But its time for me to know
We aren't meant to be,
The signs show.
Even though you'll never love me,
And even if my dreams don't come true,
Its so hard for me to say,
I'll always love you.

Love.

Just a Phase

Sometimes i burst out into tears.
Incapable of facing all my fears.
Every night, there's a silent cry.
Telling my heart the whole world is a lie.
Its hard to understand my dreams,
Like a maze, or a puzzle my life seems.

Grade Eight.

And so this day had to come.

Never knew a year would pass in a flash of a second.

Here’s to all the fun.

To all the bunks. And to all the cheats.

Everyday was a new day.

New challenges. And new chapters!

Here’s to all the moments we shared,

And all the memories we made.

All my classmates, and all my teachers.

Their detention threats, and their parent meeting calls.

Will always remain in my heart,

And even after years pass,

I’ll never let them fall apart.

And so this day had to come.

The most unwanted part of every grade,

Is here.

Leaving your class behind

Besides leaving all the fun,

And all the friends.

This day had to come.

But never knew it would,

So fast.

All I want to say, at the end of it, is

Those memories will always be with me.

The love I got will always be appreciated.

The friends I made will always remain my friends.

And I hope the coming year,

Will be as amazing and unforgettable

As this one was…

Love.